Friday, August 27, 2004
im back.
i duno if i was supposed to feel this way.whether i haf the rite to.
you said u r confused.
i reali missed the daes when we had sooo much fun together.its seems like time changed almost everything in a friendship.
i realised i dun even noe u as a person.i knew soooo little and i guess i blame myself for the whole frenship to turn out lidat.i feel distant and left out.i wonder if u reali miss me.
things aren't always i tot it was.it was damn true.i wonder if we never met, would i haf felt so insecured.ireali wonder.
i reali hope u arent angry at me over
that incident.i felt horrible.i knew i shldn't interfere.i thot wif sooo many years of frenship at stake, nth wld break its foundation.but i guess i was wrong.maybe it wasn't that bad but i cant help feeling sth to be amiss that u were sooo cold that nite.i thot u wld haf reassured me or sth lidat.
i duno whether i shld believe wad jiaqi told me.but i noe i shld.
i feel damn sensitive about this whole issue.im trying hard to accept the fact that we wld never haf that much closeness b/w us and the fact that things are changing consistently and that i shld leave it as it had always been.mayb i just not trying hard enuff.
*ifeellikesuchapessimist*icanthelpit*
::zhixinLOVESyou.
